Waiting for my real life to begin

Ohhhh, so bad.

I have a word document full of blog posts I've started (well, not really, mostly just titles) and I'm well over the halfway point of my time in Chile here, and I have nothing for you. Today I'm resorting to copying and pasting part of an email I sent to a friend... but it kind of pulls a lot of things I've been feeling more generally together, complete with clichéd travel-related metaphor! Oh boy! First person to spot it gets a scratch-and-sniff sticker in the color of their choice. (words will not describe how much Chilean high school students go crazy for these, by the way...secret participation weapon!)

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I'm starting to hit what might be some kind of stride in teaching, and it makes me want to go home so I can learn how to do it right and start moving forward on things, which is good because I have been wanting that feeling (rather than the oh my god I wish time would just stop! feeling) for awhile now. I have officially been in Chile 3 months as of today, and I'm planning to be home in 2 more (a little less than a month and a half left in the classroom, then I get to travel!) It's bizarre how quickly and how slowly the time has passed, and how many things I've seen that I was and was not expecting to see. I'm not in love with Chile, and I miss everyone a lot... I think I wrote an email earlier about feeling like I'm always waiting for something to start or end here, and that waiting feeling is not something I like living. The good thing is that I'm starting to feel a lot less like that, and although I'm not in love with Chile like maybe I was thinking I was going to be, we are still friends, and I feel like at least one of the main reasons I came (to see if teaching is something I can do and enjoy doing) has been achieved. The other things I´ve picked up along the way are a lot harder to name but, I know, no less useful in answering some longings I was having in the past year, or maybe longer, and they are waiting to be packed up in my suitcase to be carried back home with me and unpacked at a much later date. I should probably get going; we have some kind of craziness or other in terms of a school event cancelling classes for the third time this week (potentially a fourth time tomorrow!) this afternoon and, as I´m starting to roll with it instead of judging it, I'm actually excited to see what will happen next. (Meggers might be playing some soccer this afternoon! Oh my giddy godkins.)

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I´d like to promise I´ll be better about updating, but let's work on making sure I have a steady supply of clean socks and big girl work clothes before we move on to anything more ambitious.